Please keep in mind this is my own blog with my own thoughts and views. Please do not judge what I have experienced or what my beliefs are.
On November 2010 was when I decided to take the approach and go live on web cam. It was night I had a couple drinks in my body to get me loosened up and I than logged on. The one thing that came very natural to me was talking to others. As I was just logged on and in the midst of doing my Nakita spiel, I heard the beep. I was staring at the screen wondering what the hell that beep was. Haha, the beep was the sound of someone taking me into a private session. It took me a couple minutes to realize what was going on and thank goodness the person on the other end was completely understanding. He pretty much guided me and told me what I was "supposed" to do without him being rude or vulgar in any way. He thanked me for a job well done and was more excited that he popped my internet cherry.
As the night went on I began to relax and just go with the flow. But I had this voice in my head saying, "Act yourself Nakita. You know who you are and you are definitely not one to come off as fake." I just started talking, and the talking lead to more privates and more exclusives. On my first day I did encounter a customer that I will never want to encounter again. That was my first and that will be my last ever doing this "fantasy". Here goes...I was taken into an exclusive and while I was playing with myself he demanded for me to scream "Fuck Jesus" and repeat it over and over and over. That was one that I could not have done and was more than happy to get a negative rating for not performing such an act. There is A LOT that I will do, but that I will NOT do. He had the inclination that if it's not him saying it than I would be the one going to Hell, not him.
Each web cam girl has their own experiences but I will tell you one thing that we all have in common. You have to be mentally strong to be able to do a "job" like this because if you are not careful it will mentally fuck with you. It does not matter how beautiful, how physically fit, and how good a personality you have, someone will always have something negative to say. The more known you become the more money you make and in return the more jealousy that comes out with other models or random people coming into your room needing to say something negative just to see you break down. I have come to conclusion that I love my body shape for what it is and my personality I will never change. I will never be able to make everyone happy and I have accepted that. The negative attitudes that come into my room and try to break me will never accomplish such a task. I was already broken in my childhood, words can't break me. But I do bitch, so let me haha.
Conclusion: Alot of girls give up and quit due to the mental impact of being a web cam entertainer. Others stick through it and take the hurtful words and also the joyful words and log back on the next day and the next and the next, until we all realize that those words mean nothing, but that may be what the other person is dealing with in their lives,which we cannot see who.
I am not your mom, I am not your wife, I am not your girlfriend, and I am not your sister. I did not hurt you so in return please don't hurt me because one of those ladies made a negative impact in your life. I am Nakita Lynn...your friend and also your fantasy.
From my own words, anyone can be a web cam entertainer but it takes a certain breed to become a highly successful web cam entertainer.